I need some personal help.
Oct 7, 2015 3:59:14 GMT -6
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Post by Bobcat on Oct 7, 2015 3:59:14 GMT -6
I am asking for help. Anyone who knows me will tell you that I am head strong and never ask for help.
But here goes.
I have been going through a lot of things in my life over the last 2-3 years. I went from being a fun to be with person to someone who is angry all the time now. About 3 years ago I started to have to use a walker to help me get around. And in June of 2013 I burned my feet severely and became wheelchair bound. I can still get up and around a small bit of the time but for the most part I am stuck I this chair.
The people around me are now getting hurt because of the anger I have built up. I never want to hurt them and I do not know if it to late to save the relationship with the bst person I know, my husband. He is my heart and I find myself asking if I have gone so far into the anger that I have done so much harm that I have lost him in my life.
How do you go through life seeing other people walk, playing, or just out for a night having fun. It is hard when you are sitting on the side of the road watching everyone you love and care about do the things you want to be doing with them. I want to enjoy a day at the theme park but then I sit and watch my family go on the rides and I am left behind. Even going out to dinner I have to get help moving a chair from the table so that I can sit with my loved ones.
Everything around me any more just reminds me of what I have done to myself. This chair is my punishment for years of not listening to my doctors about the damage being done to my body from my diabetes. This is my own personal made hell. I now know that I want out of it but dgo not know how to do so on my own.
How do I find the silver lining and find something positive to hold on to. My life is falling down around me and I am drowning in all of this bitterness. HELP PLEASE I need help. I want to be happy again. I want my family to be proud of me again. I want, no hope, to be loved again by my best friend, my rock ,my heart and soul.
PLEASE CAN ANYONE GIVE ME SOME ADVICE!!!!!
Is this coming to late? Can this be fixed?
Thanks for the ear.
Cat
But here goes.
I have been going through a lot of things in my life over the last 2-3 years. I went from being a fun to be with person to someone who is angry all the time now. About 3 years ago I started to have to use a walker to help me get around. And in June of 2013 I burned my feet severely and became wheelchair bound. I can still get up and around a small bit of the time but for the most part I am stuck I this chair.
The people around me are now getting hurt because of the anger I have built up. I never want to hurt them and I do not know if it to late to save the relationship with the bst person I know, my husband. He is my heart and I find myself asking if I have gone so far into the anger that I have done so much harm that I have lost him in my life.
How do you go through life seeing other people walk, playing, or just out for a night having fun. It is hard when you are sitting on the side of the road watching everyone you love and care about do the things you want to be doing with them. I want to enjoy a day at the theme park but then I sit and watch my family go on the rides and I am left behind. Even going out to dinner I have to get help moving a chair from the table so that I can sit with my loved ones.
Everything around me any more just reminds me of what I have done to myself. This chair is my punishment for years of not listening to my doctors about the damage being done to my body from my diabetes. This is my own personal made hell. I now know that I want out of it but dgo not know how to do so on my own.
How do I find the silver lining and find something positive to hold on to. My life is falling down around me and I am drowning in all of this bitterness. HELP PLEASE I need help. I want to be happy again. I want my family to be proud of me again. I want, no hope, to be loved again by my best friend, my rock ,my heart and soul.
PLEASE CAN ANYONE GIVE ME SOME ADVICE!!!!!
Is this coming to late? Can this be fixed?
Thanks for the ear.
Cat