Post by atf1886 on May 2, 2015 19:55:24 GMT -6
The day I could remember it was July 18, 1986 and I had just finished a long day at work wondering what my next move in life was going to be, at this point I was alone in an efficiency the size of a bedroom, Contemplating my next move in life I was put into the biggest predicament of my life.
I was nearly broke, medicine to sustain my addiction was running out its like no matter how many hours I put in the check seemed to get smaller. I had a couple of friends that would come over and indulge in this addiction of ours,
In Miami "Coke" was called the white man's drug for a reason because you had to have a connection or boat loads of money to support the Addiction.
I can't remember having these so called friends over who only seemed to come around when yayo was in abundance, I can remember as it started to run out so did these friends. I can't Remember hitting an all time low broke , feinding, physically sick for not eating like I used to It was grabbing control of my life, my soul, my spirit, mom was not happy with my appearance either but was to embarrassed to mention anything to me about my condition.
I can remember the nights of staying up all night getting blown playing video games till the Crack of dawn, my life was a train wreck and getting worse thankfully I was able to keep a job and had no real responsibility so I didn't have to steal to support my habit.
One day I can remember my uncle a police officer looking at me and stating hey you think I don't know what your doing but you are only killing your self, I looked at him smiled and said uncle I don't know what your talking about but I can't guarantee you you have no idea what I have going on.
One day while playing video games I had met a couple of people though friends from work I had this one friend Armando and we became close to the point were he had invited me to a party at his house. I remember the night before going to this party getting blown again to the point where I stay up all night again. I remember showing up to the party some what sober and being offered a drink, I had so much yayo in my system that I downed about three cups of vodka and not even feeling a buzz.
I remember talking to Armando and he introduced me to his sister Annie she was F****** hot to the point I had to talk to her, only the problem was that she had a boyfriend and he looked like a tool. I could tell by her reaction that she was a bit interested in me by the smiles and looks that I had received.
I can recall the party ending well for me and horrible for Annie's boyfriend I could feel the attraction without having to flex one muscle it was great! I can remember after getting home getting back on the video games and saying man she is still in my mind! Well who none other than Armando gets on and we start conversing about the party and got to the subject of Armando's sister Annie, I had a smile on my face the whole conversation and ended with a thank you for the invite, afterwards got back to my evil habit.
A couple of months went by of being lonely and thinking about Annie wondering where she was or what she was doing only to be told by her brother Armando that her and her boyfriend had gotten into a huge fight and she was sad and alone. I saw this as my opportunity to swing in and snatch her away before another loser had the opportunity to pry her from my fingers.
The while time while talking with her I told her I wanted to be honest that I was on drugs and that I was a horrible person, not only did she say thank you for the honesty she said we would work through it , three months later being together and having a great relationship and had had intercourse a couple of times told me that she was pregnant and that I was going to be a daddy, at this point I broke down and cried like never below "why a scumbag like me would get the opportunity at being a husband and a father but I did two children later and a wife that accepted and accepts me in all weaknesses is still by my side between the good and evil fights
The End...
I was nearly broke, medicine to sustain my addiction was running out its like no matter how many hours I put in the check seemed to get smaller. I had a couple of friends that would come over and indulge in this addiction of ours,
In Miami "Coke" was called the white man's drug for a reason because you had to have a connection or boat loads of money to support the Addiction.
I can't remember having these so called friends over who only seemed to come around when yayo was in abundance, I can remember as it started to run out so did these friends. I can't Remember hitting an all time low broke , feinding, physically sick for not eating like I used to It was grabbing control of my life, my soul, my spirit, mom was not happy with my appearance either but was to embarrassed to mention anything to me about my condition.
I can remember the nights of staying up all night getting blown playing video games till the Crack of dawn, my life was a train wreck and getting worse thankfully I was able to keep a job and had no real responsibility so I didn't have to steal to support my habit.
One day I can remember my uncle a police officer looking at me and stating hey you think I don't know what your doing but you are only killing your self, I looked at him smiled and said uncle I don't know what your talking about but I can't guarantee you you have no idea what I have going on.
One day while playing video games I had met a couple of people though friends from work I had this one friend Armando and we became close to the point were he had invited me to a party at his house. I remember the night before going to this party getting blown again to the point where I stay up all night again. I remember showing up to the party some what sober and being offered a drink, I had so much yayo in my system that I downed about three cups of vodka and not even feeling a buzz.
I remember talking to Armando and he introduced me to his sister Annie she was F****** hot to the point I had to talk to her, only the problem was that she had a boyfriend and he looked like a tool. I could tell by her reaction that she was a bit interested in me by the smiles and looks that I had received.
I can recall the party ending well for me and horrible for Annie's boyfriend I could feel the attraction without having to flex one muscle it was great! I can remember after getting home getting back on the video games and saying man she is still in my mind! Well who none other than Armando gets on and we start conversing about the party and got to the subject of Armando's sister Annie, I had a smile on my face the whole conversation and ended with a thank you for the invite, afterwards got back to my evil habit.
A couple of months went by of being lonely and thinking about Annie wondering where she was or what she was doing only to be told by her brother Armando that her and her boyfriend had gotten into a huge fight and she was sad and alone. I saw this as my opportunity to swing in and snatch her away before another loser had the opportunity to pry her from my fingers.
The while time while talking with her I told her I wanted to be honest that I was on drugs and that I was a horrible person, not only did she say thank you for the honesty she said we would work through it , three months later being together and having a great relationship and had had intercourse a couple of times told me that she was pregnant and that I was going to be a daddy, at this point I broke down and cried like never below "why a scumbag like me would get the opportunity at being a husband and a father but I did two children later and a wife that accepted and accepts me in all weaknesses is still by my side between the good and evil fights
The End...
