Post by whitealice on Dec 4, 2014 16:30:38 GMT -6
First off, let me offer an explanation as to why I deleted the content that I had posted on the original thread for total transparency. Nearly a decade ago after several years of research, my ex and I argued about the taboos surrounding discussion of the subject within and outside of the tribe. It was precisely because of those taboos that outsiders coming onto the reservation have been put in harm's way, including myself. My unbelief in the subject and expectation of being confronted by some old native dude in a skin left me utterly open to danger. Suffice it to say, I won the argument and he and I began to share information anonymously on various sites on the internet.
One of those threads took off and began to get a lot of attention from both tribal members and non-natives. After it reach a few hundred pages of information being exchanged, however, the thread had come under the attention of a few less than friendly individuals who began issuing threats to me both publicly and privately. To avoid repeat, I will not go into many details of what occurred next but suffice it to say that the thread was deleted by the site owner after reviewing the messages that I was receiving to protect myself and my loved ones. I had been identified and was silenced for nearly 7 years since.
That has not been an easy silence but I have been watching things change in those last 7 years. Plus those who threatened my family and I didn't find every thread. They only went to that one because of it drew too much attention and became a top return. It's why I said very little on the subject on TOS and just popped in here and there on threads to say a little. I looked at all the threads there on the subject. I even saw a reference to the aforementioned thread that had been deleted. That stung and was both funny and sad at the same time. There's nothing I hate more in this world than dishonesty and I felt dishonest.
However, that is also the reason why, when what occurred with AiRen happened and in those private emails, I started deleting content to abandon the thread. That wasn't temper or being petty. It was fear that, should all of the above recur again, we'd be at risk and either never know or that we wouldn't be protected like last time because of hostility. My children always come first.
I hope that you can all understand that and forgive me for doing what I felt like I needed to do. I will try to rebuild the thread from here and here's to hoping that it never gets found like those others.
One of those threads took off and began to get a lot of attention from both tribal members and non-natives. After it reach a few hundred pages of information being exchanged, however, the thread had come under the attention of a few less than friendly individuals who began issuing threats to me both publicly and privately. To avoid repeat, I will not go into many details of what occurred next but suffice it to say that the thread was deleted by the site owner after reviewing the messages that I was receiving to protect myself and my loved ones. I had been identified and was silenced for nearly 7 years since.
That has not been an easy silence but I have been watching things change in those last 7 years. Plus those who threatened my family and I didn't find every thread. They only went to that one because of it drew too much attention and became a top return. It's why I said very little on the subject on TOS and just popped in here and there on threads to say a little. I looked at all the threads there on the subject. I even saw a reference to the aforementioned thread that had been deleted. That stung and was both funny and sad at the same time. There's nothing I hate more in this world than dishonesty and I felt dishonest.
However, that is also the reason why, when what occurred with AiRen happened and in those private emails, I started deleting content to abandon the thread. That wasn't temper or being petty. It was fear that, should all of the above recur again, we'd be at risk and either never know or that we wouldn't be protected like last time because of hostility. My children always come first.
I hope that you can all understand that and forgive me for doing what I felt like I needed to do. I will try to rebuild the thread from here and here's to hoping that it never gets found like those others.